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sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway.

No calls, no texts, nothing ... but i'm still here thinking about you like mad <3

Dear God..

Give me strength to stay strong in this tough world
when no one understands me,
and few have my back.
Allow me to be thankful for the joy i have.
I cant change everyone,
but please grace them with an open mind
as it is our only chance for salvation
i zip up my hoodie and turn my back
to start walking again
the road is dark.
and no one is there to help.

Dreams!

i have mocks in 4 days. i spend half of the day dreaming. and the other half eating and sitting infront of the books BUT not studying. 

had to write a lot. had to take it all out. but i guess i dont have the courage to discuss it with anyone. not even with my own self. its like the truth is standing in front. but i have my eyes closed. tightly! i dont wanna face it. or maybe i wasnt ready for it. im too young to be this old! :(

talking about being old.. my birthday tommorow. all i want is one thing. just 1 wish. i never thought there would come a time in my life when i'd think this way.

i keep on telling myself not to hope for anything. but then i realize how badlyyy i want this wish to come true. sigh!