Not even a little bit..

"I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car, 
I hate it when you stare. 
I hate your big dumb combat boots 
and the way you read my mind. 
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme. 
I hate the way you're always right, 
I hate it when you lie. 
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry. 
I hate it when you're not around, 
and the fact that you didn't call. 
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, 
not even close
not even a little bit 
not even at all."



Some songs and words rip your heart out and should never be listened to.. Never!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkkDcaP8beI

'07 - '10

2007- everyone promised to meet on this day. every year. no matter what.
2010- aww its sports day? wish i could go. haha!


i need to sleEP  o_O
and stop flooding my bro's wall. but this is one of the few ways i can irritate him now. i miss him. seriously. laptop phone sab theek chal raha hai. phir bhi i miss him :/

kia yaar :/

I dont like this..I swear, I seriously dont. The way something pops up out of the blue and leaves you troubled. So much of happiness and laughter, a perfect day and then a weird shock in my inbox that took away my sleep.
 Uhhhh :@ :@

 Hours changed into days, days into weeks, weeks into months, and soon, years will go by. The only thing which is to remain resolute is reality, the same reality that I face as i look into my cellphone's contact book. There is a number that I'll never get a call from again. Not even a text. I inevitably smile at the thought: This was the only number that kept my cellphone ringing at all times specially a day before exam.


Mashed potatoes with cream cheese and pepper ..Lovin it. :D

Winter is not a season. Its a state of mind. Unreasonable servings of tea and coffee, deadly cravings for seafood, losing yourself in old classics and sleeping on the couch despite having a bed that covers half of your room.
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Does dipping 'zeera plus' in coffee and staring at katzung (not reading) at 4:30 am makes sense? No? Ok thankyou :)

na kaho - (the song with funny memories :D)

tabeerein le aaun mein

tum sapne de do mujhay :)

last years proff leave was different. really really different. i passed my mocks with good marks. i had simple sweet things on my mind. this year- i barely passed my mocks. but i passed okay :P and i have ALOT of things on my mind. complicated things. that just refuse to get out. and its hard to live as the only child. just like its hard to memorize pharmacokinetics of each and every drug. i mean jab patient ko dawaii prescribe kerein ge tou usko nazar araha hoga na khanay wali hai peenay wali hai yar injection hai. why make us suffer? :@

2 days and i havnt watched a single episode of greys or gg. Guess Im good at overcoming addictions =D

hahah but i ws trying to avoid these shows so that i could start studying. sigh!

Im missing my diary.. And with no diary around i feel kind of friendless.. out of 250 friends on fb i dont want to talk to any1 rite now. not that i dont have any close friends to talk to. but .. i dont know wats wrong with me :s

have i changed? or have they changed? truth is everyone has! and im not liking these differences :(

just because i cant find my diary..

'Its high time i fix my routine'
This is what i think every-time i wake up with a heavy head.
My routine was overly perfect since the last mock exam. sleep at 11. wake up at 9. lekin aaista aaista asli routine pe to aana hi tha. so finally i woke up at 1 pm today! haha.
Exactly 2 weeks from mocks, i haven't started preparing for finals. shit, these were supposed to be the 'prep leaves'.  I think i have forgotten the prep and m loving the leaves.
so im thinking of being a good girl today =p and spend some time with pharma instead of my lovely laptop.

ps thank-you for the 5 minute chat. totally made my day =D

Say its true, theres nothing like me and you
Im not alone, tell me you feel it too =)

Dear song, please go away from my mind. I'd be veryy thankful!

 Pathetically i await a phone call. A text. An email. Something.. to prove myself wrong!

....

sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway.

No calls, no texts, nothing ... but i'm still here thinking about you like mad <3

Dear God..

Give me strength to stay strong in this tough world
when no one understands me,
and few have my back.
Allow me to be thankful for the joy i have.
I cant change everyone,
but please grace them with an open mind
as it is our only chance for salvation
i zip up my hoodie and turn my back
to start walking again
the road is dark.
and no one is there to help.

Dreams!

i have mocks in 4 days. i spend half of the day dreaming. and the other half eating and sitting infront of the books BUT not studying. 

had to write a lot. had to take it all out. but i guess i dont have the courage to discuss it with anyone. not even with my own self. its like the truth is standing in front. but i have my eyes closed. tightly! i dont wanna face it. or maybe i wasnt ready for it. im too young to be this old! :(

talking about being old.. my birthday tommorow. all i want is one thing. just 1 wish. i never thought there would come a time in my life when i'd think this way.

i keep on telling myself not to hope for anything. but then i realize how badlyyy i want this wish to come true. sigh!