Pathetically i await a phone call. A text. An email. Something.. to prove myself wrong!

....

sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway.

No calls, no texts, nothing ... but i'm still here thinking about you like mad <3

Dear God..

Give me strength to stay strong in this tough world
when no one understands me,
and few have my back.
Allow me to be thankful for the joy i have.
I cant change everyone,
but please grace them with an open mind
as it is our only chance for salvation
i zip up my hoodie and turn my back
to start walking again
the road is dark.
and no one is there to help.

Dreams!

i have mocks in 4 days. i spend half of the day dreaming. and the other half eating and sitting infront of the books BUT not studying. 

had to write a lot. had to take it all out. but i guess i dont have the courage to discuss it with anyone. not even with my own self. its like the truth is standing in front. but i have my eyes closed. tightly! i dont wanna face it. or maybe i wasnt ready for it. im too young to be this old! :(

talking about being old.. my birthday tommorow. all i want is one thing. just 1 wish. i never thought there would come a time in my life when i'd think this way.

i keep on telling myself not to hope for anything. but then i realize how badlyyy i want this wish to come true. sigh!